Thursday, October 19, 2006

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4

The praciticalities of this world has been getting to me. It's frustrating sometimes when living requires so much complexity. Money, jobs, bills...impersonal and mechanical operations of the system we have created. How did it ever get to be this way? Or has it always been this way?

Why are we so afraid of each other that we need to result to becoming robots, ants when dealing with each other? What is the point of living then? What is the point in making more money, buying a bigger house, having monetary and social security when we don't feel safe spiritually and emotionally with each other?

To tell the truth I havent' been able to feel spiritually or emotionally safe with anyone for a long time. Perhaps I let go, for brief moments, during my first relationship, but those moments were few and far between. I guess that I could explain why that even though I have monetary security at this point in my life, things still feel unfulfilled. It's the emotional and spiritual aspects of my life that are lacking, as is with most people in this world. Thus the continuous drive to make more, buy more, eat more, drink more and to sedate ourselves more.

The only thing that truly heals and fulfills in this world is love. When a person has love, things make perfect sense, it is as if the meaning of life has been imparted to them. Love makes you invincible.

It has been recently that I've began to let my heart go again. I'm opening myself up in ways I haven't done before. I find that it's not so hard at all. When you let yourself go without the expectation of anything else, it's an easy thing to do. One has to realize that the love you give and feel is yours and only yours. It' s not affected if the other person doesn't love you back or tries to hurt you. That can be disappointing if you let it be, but if you transcend yourself, and realize that the reason the other person has hurt you is because of his inability to love, his pain and his complexes, then it's not disappointing at all. You can love them more for it, and have faith that they will one day heal and love you back the way you love them.

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