I have finally found a part of myself I've been searching for. The waves have given birth to me, the great water mother who lifts me up and plunges me into existence. I feel a desire in me I have not felt for many years, a yearning to live and to be free. I want to capture what I felt in the water in every moment of my life.

In the deep blue everything made sense for once. The questions faded from my mind and the answers no longer mattered. I have searched my entire life for this kind of peace, this kind of understanding and being.

I now know the man I want to become; I know what kind of life I wish to lead.

God I have never felt anything so amazing like this except for falling in love. And in a way this is falling in love as well...falling in love with the ocean and the beauty and terror that it holds.

I want to feel again the waves in my face, the pure force of the water around me. It is fate that brought me to the waves, and it is destiny that will take me back there again.